As We Go On, We Remember, All The Times We Had Together...

Final lap.

Last two months of school, which is going to be hell.

Thankful for this bunch of XMMs.

In fact, it's the first time ever I'm the oldest.

We've been through sh*t together, it really was one hell of a ride.

Glad that we went through it together.

From strangers, to classmates, to friends.

Let's stay that way.

Best news I've received in awhile, but it turned out to be a bummer.

Can't say that I'm not disappointed, but something is better than nothing.

Things I've learnt: Be contented.

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Thoughts x

Ever wondered what you would do, or change, if you had the chance to turn back time and have someone you lost again?

If I'd known better, I wouldn't have spent so much time and effort working on both my work and school assignments. Honestly, I believed that the time that I have left with you will never ever tick away. It has always been tugging on my heart. 

If I'd known better, I wouldn't have depended on my wishes to keep you safe and healthy. But what could I have done to prevent you from growing old? What could I have done to keep you healthy?

Then, I ask myself, would it be better if I'd known that you had only x months left to live? Would I have spent my time more wisely with you? Or would it be more painful to know that you were leaving? Would I be more ready to bid you goodbye? Would it hurt as much? I wouldn't say it was a sudden goodbye, it was an on-and-off thing. But I always had that faith that you will pull through every single time.

It's already been about 5 months since you've left. Looking at puppies or dogs now just makes my heart cringe and it really makes me miss you that much more.

People always say that you're in a better place now, but what do they know? Really, what do they know.

Love, Me