Since last year, she started having problems with her appetite. However, it always came back after a few days. There was once in October 2014, it got pretty bad when my parents were out of town and I brought her to the vet. Since then, things started to get worse and her appetite problem started acting out a lot more frequent. She was a dog, who didn't have any bad breath but her breath started to stink, probably due to old age and maybe ulcers that were in her mouth. We were told that she had liver problems and kidney problems and she would have serious case of shivering whenever she loses her appetite.
Last Friday, it got so bad cuz she started vomiting out yellow stuff, probably acid as she didn't want to eat at all for a week, my mom also said that she heard her scream before vomiting so she brought her to the vet. Before all the blood test results were out, I received news from my mom that Crystal might have to depend on injection everyday in order to survive, and by survive, it means that she would just be sleeping most of the time and we would have to send her to the vet every week for blood tests and check up as her kidney was failing. The vet also mentioned that she might only last for another 6 months to a year. I rushed down immediately to the vet to wait for her report to be out, already swollen-eyed from all the crying. I knew then that she didn't have a good chance of survival. When the results were out, the vet told us that it didn't look as bad as it seemed and that we could put her on drip for the fluid to flush out the toxic in her kidneys for 3 to 5 days. We agreed and I prayed for a miracle to happen.
We went to visit her the next day and it looked like things didn't get any better, she was still refusing food and water and she wasn't sleeping much as well. So we left her there for another day, hoping that somehow the drip will work after 2 days.
On Sunday, we went back and she looked better but the vet said that she isn't responding to the fluid and it was already finishing. She suggested that we could try again and add in another kind of medicine and she said it wouldn't be unreasonable for us to put her to sleep at this point in time. We decided to bring her home and see if her condition would improve, since staying in a foreign place wouldn't be the best idea when she is sick and still not eating.
Brought her home and she ended up vomiting when we tried to feed her anything, even porridge water. Then it went downhill from there. She could still walk around even though she is very frail. However, she started coughing and sneezing out brown stuff, which got darker as the day went by. B'cuz she was so weak, whenever she sneezed she would fall to the ground. I checked online, and the brown stuff was the toxic from her kidneys. She was still persistent and strong at night and could still bark by letting us know that she wants to go out of the room but she couldn't sleep, nor eat, nor drink and she would sneeze out the brown stuff every 15 minutes. She would just stare at her bowl for minutes, looking as though she wants to eat and drink but she can't seem to take it in. Looking at her suffering really broke my heart, she hasn't been eating for a week plus. She was all bones..
Monday came, and we stayed up all night watching over her. My parents decided that it was time to let her go as she was already very weak and she couldn't eat, nor sleep. Just the thought of not having her around made me cry every single time. Letting her go was the hardest decision that I ever had to make..
When we arrived at the vet, we weighed her and she lost half her weight, she used to be 7kg but she was only 3.95kg. Her hip and waist became so tiny.. We took some time to talk to her and I could feel that she knew that it was time to go from the way she looked. I know some of you may think that we shouldn't have done it, but I didn't want to see her suffer anymore. She couldn't speak, we wouldn't know if she was in pain. Why would I want to let her go when she means so much to me. She's been with me for 16 years, since I was 9, how will things ever be the same again. I didn't want to let her go and argued with my parents about it many times, but I guess it was the right thing to do.. for her.
Sometimes, I still can't believe that she is gone.. She was still eating happily and running around two weeks ago. Why did it happen so suddenly.
Sorry for all the times that I didn't spend with you and thank you for all the love that you have given me. I have a very bad memory, but I don't ever want to forget about you. I love you so much, Crystal Tan. Missing every little thing about you.. so very much. Please be happy over there, my little one.
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